Life is so different

Hi everyone. I am starting this blog because I have been diagnosed with bipolar and the best thing to do is educate yourself on the disease. Growing up I always had a hard time with life. I was depressed, overexcited, and overtly sexual. I started cutting myself in elemetary school and I really had no excitement about any future. I drank alcohol at 12 and started drugs when i was 13 I guess it was self medicating at the time. Junior high came and I just fell in with the wrong crowd obviously. This was when my parents had enough of my extreme behavior and decided to send me to another school. I was devastated. I went to the bathroom with a full bottle of tylenol and downed the bottle. I hoped death was quick and painless. No not enough to die I just got sick and my parents let me suffer and told no one of the incident. Sadly I was probably needing help with medication from elementary school. I remember going to a 30 day stay at Holliswood mental hospital for cutting and mutilating myself and I finally stopped out of fear of being locked up forever. Nowadays mutilaton is legal and I have 8 tattoos to prove it. Now I remember always being over sexual like I said and starting masturbation as a little girl. i seemed obsessed with sex and had to have it. I started early and as time progressed I had so many dates and was sleeping with sometimes two guys a day. I guess it was cause I was manic as they call it. I never really had any other interests because I was never even keeled to stay with a project long enough. There is so much more but I just wanted to start a brief history of my beginnings. I am currently on medication and in the care of a therapist and psychiatrist. Please stay tuned for more blogs, stories and journals as they come.